When poems come, I let them be what they are, without judgement or the need to refine them. They are an expression of what’s in my heart in a particular moment, and that’s all they need to be.

I am morphing
Drawn by the current
Of progress.
But I am raw,
Undone.
A reluctant participant in this too-slow unraveling,
I dwell in the shadows cast by my own reflection.
I have travelled too far
And home is a return to my self
But tonight, there is only a candle in the window
Dim, flickering
and nearly spent,
And my heart has been turned away for so long.
Yet still I shuffle forward
Barely swimming in the river of my yearning
Fighting
Resisting
This urge to let go,
To let it wash away
Every trace of my shame and sorrow.
But I give in.
I give in more every day,
With every breath
And every tear.
But still the riverbank holds me.
Or rather,
It is I who clings.
And still that candle flickers.

I wrote this poem when I was going through a slow and deep unravelling of the illusions of my life. Layer by layer, I consciously unmasked the pain I carried and allowed myself to sit in it fully on the path to healing.  It’s a process of learning to know and love myself deeply, intimately and in wholeness. This culminated in me shedding the illusions of who I am so that I could re-emerge Phoenix-like, more authentic, less afraid and ready.

I wrote this poem well into the descent of that journey.

5 thoughts on “Phoenix: A Poem

  1. Life is tough , there are times when we do our best yet due to some reason we don’t attain what we aspire. Our dreams crash & our hope burns to ashes, it is at this juncture in life life that we must unleash the phoenix of our souls. After all in life sometimes like a phoenix we as individuals too need to die a bit inside in order to rise as a stronger & wiser version of ourselves 🙂 My very first poem on my blog pertained about phoenix which I had penned when I was going through a sense of depression so I could truly relate with your poem. According to your convenience please do read some of my writings would love to know what you think about them 🙂

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    1. Yes, it’s a very powerful thing to go into Phoenix mode – never easy but the reward is well worth it, as you say. I wrote this last year, so I’m pleased I’m not in that space anymore. And thank you for sharing your thoughts, I am so happy that you can relate to the poem. I will check yours out soon and let you know what I think. 🙂

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      1. Thanks for respecting my invitation 🙂 In the journey of life may the spirit of the phoenix always instill in your heart so that even in the darkest situations your inner light makes you smile as big as river Nile 🙂

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